kyle is my best friend and honestly i feel like he has been since we first met. even though i've only known him for about five months (both of them really) he really has been there for me. through all the dram with my mom, my ex, and my family, he's kind of been the only person i could talk to . everyone else i've been really scared to open up to about my relationships because... well i dont know, i guess i'm just more comfortable with him. but anyway because of kyle i learned something extremely crucial today :
no one should look to you for their happiness. its something they have to have in themselves before they can try to make anyone else happy or even accept your love and what you give to them.
and he's right. maybe its because he's older than me, or maybe because he kind of knows me in a way i think only one other person does (ex) but he sees me in a really different way. we couldve been together... we've had the best conversations... we've smoked together (i dont do it often, if at all)... he's kind of gets me in a way that most people dont... he's introduced me to new things... he told me he loved me...
i dont see him through rose coloured glasses which is why we cant be together... not just yet at least... i dont know, he's just the best person to just be around, he always was . jones has left. something i dont really grasp, but then again i think he's wrong, so why should i care? i do. but why should i? exactly.
but honestly my valentine, i think i'll write a poema about you. just because... you hug me deep and say you missed me every time you see me.
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