introduction to my book

*** i wrote this a long time ago & never finisshed ***

in my own decadence i managed to alienate myself from everything i once knew. as my heels met the concrete, i pondered what my life would have been if i never left. but those thoughts quickly vanished from my thoughts like the smoke from my cigarette. As i stopped to look at a young mother cooing her baby, i took one last long drag and exhaled the toxins. Admiring the look of the white against my perfectly manicured hands, i smiled slightly at the irony of my life. i dropped the unfinished half. watching it fall thoughtfully i wondered about gravity as second before crushing it under my pump. "damn...", i thought aloud, trying hard to rack my brain. "why is everyone picking on me, something something... knock a n*gga out," i rapped trying to remember the first verse of "running away" by the pharacyde. but all i could remember was the chorus... you cant keep running away-ay-ay...